I sat on my bed today looking at the college schedules for my major. It’s so exciting. If you can say that I’m in a rush to get outta here, hell yeah I am.

I’ve had my fun, and frankly, my ability to linger on certain aspects such as the so-called ‘freedoms’ of high school is limited. Not because I’m boring, not because I didn’t enjoy high school, but I feel it’s time for a change and that my time here is spent.

I was watching The Vampire Diaries as well, and I noticed that almost none of the situations in the show has happened to me. Not the obvious supernatural, vampire shenanigans, but just the overall teenage conundrums. In any shows that depict that teenage life, I just can’t fully relate.

Parties, drugs, blah. None interest me. Crushes and such were also quite limited because I am stubborn and I have too much self-esteem, plus I’ve already found the one person that adds that extra piece to my life, so all those puppy-lovey emotions have never really crossed through me. Or if they have, they’ve already been washed out of my system years ago.

Aside that school activities, sports, clubs, yeah I’ve done this and that, and it was fun, but is it too much to ask for more?

I’m not expecting too much from college, but I just want a different plane. Somewhere I can further my development as a person, cause it ain’t happening here.

I don’t know, but I have a good feeling about this.

K, although I did promise myself to not rant about anything regarding high school, only because it is close to the end, I feel that it is good to look back on all my miserable failures to prepare myself for a better career in college.

Reminiscing on my 4 years of high school is quite pitiful, but just as it is hard to read back on that shitty rough draft of an essay you constructed two hours before the due date, it is good to know what mistakes you make. So here, I will pinpoint my ignorance:

1. The mentality of “tomorrow”, “later”, “next year”
2. The belief that “everyone else” will/won’t do that.
3. Lowering my standards to a point of oblivion.

Stupid. Stupid.

If I have any youngin’s looking upon this right now, follow these instructions precisely and I insure you a happy high school career:

Make good friends, do your homework, don’t do anything just because “everyone else” is and don’t not do something because “everyone else” isn’t, don’t think that you’re stupid, don’t think that you’re weak, don’t give up because it’s hard, don’t give up because it’s late, but don’t think that there will always be a tomorrow - because there won’t be, listen to your parents - but don’t let them force you into something you don’t want, and make time for yourself and have a dream.

You’ve probably heard this quadrillion times, but EMBED this into your life.

Either way, I didn’t learn, you probably won’t either, but try to remember this:

Don’t beat yourself up too hard; get up and keep on going.

Think of it as Temple Run. Even when you hit the sides of the walls or jump a bit too early, you can still keep going. And even if you fall or hit a tree or get eaten, you can always restart right after.